...Damn it, that kid has more sense than any of us.
[Ango can't blame Coorow for heading back to the elevator. That's what Amane says he wants, after all... and Ango's got a feeling that this situation is about to get real ugly. Sighing, he turns back to the creepy twins.]
Yeah, I thought I had a solution to my problems all figured out, too. I'd just pop into the Dream Sphere for a couple of months until the shitstorm blew over and then I'd go back.
[And he'd be able to pay his debts off in no time by not having to spend money on rent or food... Ango's problems may seem stupid and self-inflicted next to Amane's, but at the time, with yakuza loan sharks breathing down his neck, they'd felt no less life-threatening.
...And then the Dream Sphere offered him an endless spring where nothing could ever die because it was already dead. A place where he was loved as much as he was capable of being loved.]
I was always gonna go back... I was going to at least pop back into the real world every once in a while to tell everybody that I was okay. But... I forgot. This place does something to your brain. I forgot why I came here, I forgot why I wanted to go back, I even started to forget who I was.
[...And this isn't who Hanako is. The bitterness, the frustration, the apathy ... those are definitely a part of him, but they're not all of him. Without the part of himself that fights back that dark tide of emotion, he'll drown... like Dazai did.]
...This might feel like a solution right now, but trust me, it ain't the solution you want.
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[Ango can't blame Coorow for heading back to the elevator. That's what Amane says he wants, after all... and Ango's got a feeling that this situation is about to get real ugly. Sighing, he turns back to the creepy twins.]
Yeah, I thought I had a solution to my problems all figured out, too. I'd just pop into the Dream Sphere for a couple of months until the shitstorm blew over and then I'd go back.
[And he'd be able to pay his debts off in no time by not having to spend money on rent or food... Ango's problems may seem stupid and self-inflicted next to Amane's, but at the time, with yakuza loan sharks breathing down his neck, they'd felt no less life-threatening.
...And then the Dream Sphere offered him an endless spring where nothing could ever die because it was already dead. A place where he was loved as much as he was capable of being loved.]
I was always gonna go back... I was going to at least pop back into the real world every once in a while to tell everybody that I was okay. But... I forgot. This place does something to your brain. I forgot why I came here, I forgot why I wanted to go back, I even started to forget who I was.
[...And this isn't who Hanako is. The bitterness, the frustration, the apathy ... those are definitely a part of him, but they're not all of him. Without the part of himself that fights back that dark tide of emotion, he'll drown... like Dazai did.]
...This might feel like a solution right now, but trust me, it ain't the solution you want.