[Lisa is silent for a long time. She definitely heard Junna - she stiffened at a couple points, and her head dipped even lower at some point. She can't even look up, let alone meet Junna's gaze. But...
...she squeezes Junna's hand harder, and she shudders. Her tears come faster now, dripping onto their joined hands, but she doesn't care. Instead she speaks in a croak.]
I wish- I wish you'd b-been there, five years ago. Maybe... maybe I wouldn't be s-so screwed up now.
[She finally picks her head up to look at Junna properly. She isn't one of those girls in dramas that are still pretty when they cry - her face is tear-stained, her eyes are red on top of the bags she's had since they found the Disturbance almost a week ago, and she's sniffling. But... something is shining in her eyes that wasn't there before. She doesn't look like she's totally lost in despair, not like she did when she woke up a few minutes ago.]
I've been leaning on you a lot. And I... I don't t-think I'm going to stop any time soon. But... I want to b-be better. I want to be able to- to help when things g-go wrong. When you need... someone to lean on. So... I have to be-believe in that happiness. I have to- bear that weight. [She sucks in a long, unsteady breath, and lets it out slowly.] I d-don't know if I'll be okay, but... I might be able to keep moving forward.
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...she squeezes Junna's hand harder, and she shudders. Her tears come faster now, dripping onto their joined hands, but she doesn't care. Instead she speaks in a croak.]
I wish- I wish you'd b-been there, five years ago. Maybe... maybe I wouldn't be s-so screwed up now.
[She finally picks her head up to look at Junna properly. She isn't one of those girls in dramas that are still pretty when they cry - her face is tear-stained, her eyes are red on top of the bags she's had since they found the Disturbance almost a week ago, and she's sniffling. But... something is shining in her eyes that wasn't there before. She doesn't look like she's totally lost in despair, not like she did when she woke up a few minutes ago.]
I've been leaning on you a lot. And I... I don't t-think I'm going to stop any time soon. But... I want to b-be better. I want to be able to- to help when things g-go wrong. When you need... someone to lean on. So... I have to be-believe in that happiness. I have to- bear that weight. [She sucks in a long, unsteady breath, and lets it out slowly.] I d-don't know if I'll be okay, but... I might be able to keep moving forward.