[Sibling relationships were tricky enough to imagine when you didn't have any, but having a twin was a whole other story altogether. Having somebody by your side since the moment you were born-- somebody with the same face, even-- sharing all of the same milestones and developments... it was hard to explain to those without them. It's not to say that he and Tsukasa had one of those mythical psychic bonds, nor were they extensions of one another; if anything, the past few years have proven pretty well that they were their own people with their own experiences and interests, functioning fine enough without one another. But... that all said, there was something bittersweet about going on these adventures without his oldest friend by his side, too.
It was too much to try to convey all that to Junna, however-- or rather, Amane was too awkward with his own words and feelings to get it across properly, so he opted just to give her a brief nod in response instead. Even if the stuff with her parents wasn't the same sort of loneliness and guilt he felt in regards to Tsukasa, he could still sympathize with it in his own ways, nonetheless.]
Mmm. It's hard getting people to understand something they haven't experienced themselves, huh...?
[Totally talking about Dreamer stuff here! Yup! No other meanings behind that, whatsoever!!!
He grows silent, though, when she finally goes and asks that question, kicking himself for getting ahead of himself and saying too much. Granted, she wasn't the first person he told about it... and after all she'd been through in his Disturbance, she deserved a bit of context. But did he really want to talk about it now, though? Junna did give him an out...
Finally, he sighs, a soft little thing, his posture slumping further as he continues to avoid her eyes.]
... there's not much to say, really. I had a Nightmare one night, Tsukasa jumped in to try to protect me, and then...
He got lost in there. He came back on his own eventually somehow, but... he wasn't the same. And he hasn't been the same since.
[It was a gross oversimplification of things, to say the least, but it was the easiest way to get it out in the open.]
It wasn't deliberate. I know that. But the fact still remains that if I didn't have that Nightmare, then none of this would have happened in the first place.
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It was too much to try to convey all that to Junna, however-- or rather, Amane was too awkward with his own words and feelings to get it across properly, so he opted just to give her a brief nod in response instead. Even if the stuff with her parents wasn't the same sort of loneliness and guilt he felt in regards to Tsukasa, he could still sympathize with it in his own ways, nonetheless.]
Mmm. It's hard getting people to understand something they haven't experienced themselves, huh...?
[Totally talking about Dreamer stuff here! Yup! No other meanings behind that, whatsoever!!!
He grows silent, though, when she finally goes and asks that question, kicking himself for getting ahead of himself and saying too much. Granted, she wasn't the first person he told about it... and after all she'd been through in his Disturbance, she deserved a bit of context. But did he really want to talk about it now, though? Junna did give him an out...
Finally, he sighs, a soft little thing, his posture slumping further as he continues to avoid her eyes.]
... there's not much to say, really. I had a Nightmare one night, Tsukasa jumped in to try to protect me, and then...
He got lost in there. He came back on his own eventually somehow, but... he wasn't the same. And he hasn't been the same since.
[It was a gross oversimplification of things, to say the least, but it was the easiest way to get it out in the open.]
It wasn't deliberate. I know that. But the fact still remains that if I didn't have that Nightmare, then none of this would have happened in the first place.