[Junna listens, quietly, at first. There's a flinch when she hears Lisa's voice shaking like that. Admitting she couldn't hold her emotions back anymore, admitting how bad things got. She looks at Lisa, and her arms shift a little -- holding her up, sliding underneath Lisa's arms to make sure she doesn't fall. She holds her, still, and she looks down at her as her knees almost give out. She bites her lower lip; it whitens under her teeth. It hurts to hear her say those things.
They're not things she would ever think of her. Her wonderful, amazing girlfriend, who looks after others, who tries as hard as anyone she has ever met, who never lets her walk out the front door without adjusting her coat if it's askew, who has cookies for everyone when they need it. Junna's expression is one that's hurt. And she waits for a second, for Lisa to finish talking.
And a little longer after that. Then, her hands come up, her fingers cupping Lisa's face. She wipes, gently, under her eyes with her numbs.]
You're not your worst moments, Lisa. You're not. [Her voice is quiet and it trembles when she speaks. She's having to struggle to not cry, herself. It's hard to not, when she sees Lisa crying. But she manages.] You don't stop being all the wonderful things you are because everything came on at once, it piled up, and it pushed you past that point. I-I don't look at you and...
[She leans her head back in, forehead against Lisa's. Her voice is quiet and steady.]
...I see the kindest person I know, who reaches out when someone needs it. One of the smartest people I've ever met, because you know what moves a person's heart. The most beautiful woman I've seen. And... [She leans in, kissing Lisa softly on the lips, even if they're trembling. It's a brief kiss.] ...The best person I've known. You're the best because even if you're at your lowest, even if you're pushed past your breaking point, you're asking how you can be better. Not making excuses for how you got there. You're so much more more than enough. And--and even if you were a mess--
[Junna swallows, still with her forehead against hers.] I was pushed past my breaking point. I hurt people. I attacked Nene-chan, and Olruggio and Zeke-san, and Jeannette-chan, and--and you still... [She trembles.] You still love me. You still said I'm wonderful. You let me stay. [Her cheeks heat up, again.] And... you made sure you knew how you felt, when you did.
It's easier to start to love myself, when I know someone as wonderful as you loves me. So... [She smiles, and she half-laughs and half-cries, finding her eyes are starting to tear up.] ...I love you. I won't ever turn my back on you, I just--I want you to feel the same way about yourself as I feel about you, some day.
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They're not things she would ever think of her. Her wonderful, amazing girlfriend, who looks after others, who tries as hard as anyone she has ever met, who never lets her walk out the front door without adjusting her coat if it's askew, who has cookies for everyone when they need it. Junna's expression is one that's hurt. And she waits for a second, for Lisa to finish talking.
And a little longer after that. Then, her hands come up, her fingers cupping Lisa's face. She wipes, gently, under her eyes with her numbs.]
You're not your worst moments, Lisa. You're not. [Her voice is quiet and it trembles when she speaks. She's having to struggle to not cry, herself. It's hard to not, when she sees Lisa crying. But she manages.] You don't stop being all the wonderful things you are because everything came on at once, it piled up, and it pushed you past that point. I-I don't look at you and...
[She leans her head back in, forehead against Lisa's. Her voice is quiet and steady.]
...I see the kindest person I know, who reaches out when someone needs it. One of the smartest people I've ever met, because you know what moves a person's heart. The most beautiful woman I've seen. And... [She leans in, kissing Lisa softly on the lips, even if they're trembling. It's a brief kiss.] ...The best person I've known. You're the best because even if you're at your lowest, even if you're pushed past your breaking point, you're asking how you can be better. Not making excuses for how you got there. You're so much more more than enough. And--and even if you were a mess--
[Junna swallows, still with her forehead against hers.] I was pushed past my breaking point. I hurt people. I attacked Nene-chan, and Olruggio and Zeke-san, and Jeannette-chan, and--and you still... [She trembles.] You still love me. You still said I'm wonderful. You let me stay. [Her cheeks heat up, again.] And... you made sure you knew how you felt, when you did.
It's easier to start to love myself, when I know someone as wonderful as you loves me. So... [She smiles, and she half-laughs and half-cries, finding her eyes are starting to tear up.] ...I love you. I won't ever turn my back on you, I just--I want you to feel the same way about yourself as I feel about you, some day.
One step at a time, together.