Hey, I said before, I'm not psychoanalyzing you on purpose. [She grins, pushing through the stitch in her side that shouldn't exist.] But I get it. I do that sometimes too. I... I have to be right, yeah? So I just bull straight ahead, and when I'm wrong anyway something goes really bad.
[She sees the cogs turning in Junna's brain, sees her coming to a conclusion. Her instinct is that she's going to be a little concerned about what the output is, and she's a little worried to be proven right. Not that it surprises her the way this evening's gone - the way their mental states are - but. Hmm.]
You didn't. You should never have to. [She calmly, gently, lets herself squeeze Junna's hand in return. Her expression sobers.] This isn't your fault, and I'm telling you because I hope it will help you - help us - not because I want you to feel bad or anything, okay? I... I got hurt, but a lot of what hurt me was my own bad decisions, because I couldn't calm down. You are not to blame, Junna. I forgive you, and I'm not mad at you.
[There's a long moment of silence while Lisa thinks. Should she... well. That's not a question. They agreed to try and be more open about things, right? Is this the time...? Well. That's also kind of a silly question. She lets out a long breath.]
When you first came back to me... I was so scared. When I was about to attack Sonic, when I fought Hibiki - I told her like an idiot when she was flying me out - I thought I wouldn't be able to hold you again. That hands that hurt other people, on purpose and with malice and intent to harm, aren't things I should be using for comfort. You... you coaxed me into pushing through it then, but it still- [her throat is dry; she swallows hard-] it still gets to me, a little. I- I don't want to hurt you either! But that's always there now, you know? I don't... trust myself.
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[She sees the cogs turning in Junna's brain, sees her coming to a conclusion. Her instinct is that she's going to be a little concerned about what the output is, and she's a little worried to be proven right. Not that it surprises her the way this evening's gone - the way their mental states are - but. Hmm.]
You didn't. You should never have to. [She calmly, gently, lets herself squeeze Junna's hand in return. Her expression sobers.] This isn't your fault, and I'm telling you because I hope it will help you - help us - not because I want you to feel bad or anything, okay? I... I got hurt, but a lot of what hurt me was my own bad decisions, because I couldn't calm down. You are not to blame, Junna. I forgive you, and I'm not mad at you.
[There's a long moment of silence while Lisa thinks. Should she... well. That's not a question. They agreed to try and be more open about things, right? Is this the time...? Well. That's also kind of a silly question. She lets out a long breath.]
When you first came back to me... I was so scared. When I was about to attack Sonic, when I fought Hibiki - I told her like an idiot when she was flying me out - I thought I wouldn't be able to hold you again. That hands that hurt other people, on purpose and with malice and intent to harm, aren't things I should be using for comfort. You... you coaxed me into pushing through it then, but it still- [her throat is dry; she swallows hard-] it still gets to me, a little. I- I don't want to hurt you either! But that's always there now, you know? I don't... trust myself.