If you liked it, that'd be really weird.

[What was Ai's endgame, in all of this? Zeke has wondered that ever since he found out, and now his fears were all coming true: this was the only possible way it could end. The slimmest hope that the secret would hold until Ai was retired and out of the public eye had never been realistic.]

You need to take care of yourself first, though, and you're not doing that. Whatever happens, Ai will be worse off if you're hurting yourself to accomplish nothing.