[The question brings Lisa up short; she keeps playing through muscle memory to keep the shield in front of her, but she completely tunes out the Torments for a second as she glances at him. What the hell kind of question is that?]
What kind of question is that? Of course I want to be a Dreamer! I like the work! Knowing I'm helping people feels good. I just don't like... well, the Disturbances. Or feeling like I'm not really helping sometimes. Or getting shot in the same place what feels like every two months...
[She trails off; the litany of complaints, including a couple she doesn't voice for being petty and the fact that the Disturbances count like eight times, balanced against a single positive point that isn't particularly positive, gets her attention. She frowns, considering for a moment. Then her frown turns into something significantly more melancholy. Her words come more slowly, like she's trying to talk through her thoughts; her fingers are still moving, but they're slowing with her, and the shield flickers in and out.]
I thought I wanted to be a Dreamer. I was so excited when I first Awoke, even if I didn't really trust anyone but Senpai and maybe Hanako-kun at first. I struggled, but I told myself I would get better, and it'd feel better. I had power, and I had to use it... [Rhodonite doesn't continue, forcing herself to keep playing. The Torments don't... exactly register, but she instinctively understands she needs to keep the shield up.]
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What kind of question is that? Of course I want to be a Dreamer! I like the work! Knowing I'm helping people feels good. I just don't like... well, the Disturbances. Or feeling like I'm not really helping sometimes. Or getting shot in the same place what feels like every two months...
[She trails off; the litany of complaints, including a couple she doesn't voice for being petty and the fact that the Disturbances count like eight times, balanced against a single positive point that isn't particularly positive, gets her attention. She frowns, considering for a moment. Then her frown turns into something significantly more melancholy. Her words come more slowly, like she's trying to talk through her thoughts; her fingers are still moving, but they're slowing with her, and the shield flickers in and out.]
I thought I wanted to be a Dreamer. I was so excited when I first Awoke, even if I didn't really trust anyone but Senpai and maybe Hanako-kun at first. I struggled, but I told myself I would get better, and it'd feel better. I had power, and I had to use it... [Rhodonite doesn't continue, forcing herself to keep playing. The Torments don't... exactly register, but she instinctively understands she needs to keep the shield up.]