[By the evening, Junna thinks that she should go back home. She got lunch and then went to the park. She thought, at first, she would go back home early. Maybe she could get some sleep. But then... then she had to face up to something else. She told herself she shouldn't talk to Lisa yet; that she should give her some space. That resolve broke down, though.
The truth is that she's terrified.
She wondered if she ruined her relationships with a lot of people. If Amane will forgive her for not telling him what she was going through. If Keiwa will feel like she lied. If Ilya will think she was faking the times she sounded competent. If Jeanette, Zeke, Nene, and Olruggio will be unhappy with her for what she put them through. And with Lisa, she wonders all of that and more; if her problems, her issues, all of it together will have driven her away and if she hurt her by hiding it.
The desire to clear that up wins out over everything else. But under that, she wants to see her. She always feels better when she does -- even if the thought she might lose that, lose Lisa, is tying her in knots inside.
She comes up to her apartment, and she hesitates over the buzzer to Karen's and Lisa's apartment. Junna's finger is outstretched, hovering there. She doesn't look half as pretty -- at least, in her head -- as she usually does when she shows up at Lisa's place. Her hair is pulled into a loose ponytail; she has a well-worn pink hoodie over a light blue T-shirt on, and loose fitting jeans; she doesn't have any make-up, jewelry, or anything else on. Junna hesitates a second, closes her eyes...
Evening of 3/5 | Closed to Lisa
The truth is that she's terrified.
She wondered if she ruined her relationships with a lot of people. If Amane will forgive her for not telling him what she was going through. If Keiwa will feel like she lied. If Ilya will think she was faking the times she sounded competent. If Jeanette, Zeke, Nene, and Olruggio will be unhappy with her for what she put them through. And with Lisa, she wonders all of that and more; if her problems, her issues, all of it together will have driven her away and if she hurt her by hiding it.
The desire to clear that up wins out over everything else. But under that, she wants to see her. She always feels better when she does -- even if the thought she might lose that, lose Lisa, is tying her in knots inside.
She comes up to her apartment, and she hesitates over the buzzer to Karen's and Lisa's apartment. Junna's finger is outstretched, hovering there. She doesn't look half as pretty -- at least, in her head -- as she usually does when she shows up at Lisa's place. Her hair is pulled into a loose ponytail; she has a well-worn pink hoodie over a light blue T-shirt on, and loose fitting jeans; she doesn't have any make-up, jewelry, or anything else on. Junna hesitates a second, closes her eyes...
...exhales...
...and presses the button.]