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yumemigaoka2025-03-04 05:18 pm
thestarknows) wrote in yumemigaoka2025-03-04 05:18 pm
Theater Kid's March Comes in Like a Lion
⭐ Who: Junna Hoshimi... and you!
⭐ When: Throughout March!
⭐ Where: In Yumemigaoka!
⭐ What: March catch-all!
⭐ Warnings: Junna's grappling with some heavy stuff, so... threads could get into parents not being great, some homophobia, and other things. There's also some implicit sleeping together (nothing NSFW though) in the Lisa and Junna thread, if that's a thing you prefer to avoid!
⭐ When: Throughout March!
⭐ Where: In Yumemigaoka!
⭐ What: March catch-all!
⭐ Warnings: Junna's grappling with some heavy stuff, so... threads could get into parents not being great, some homophobia, and other things. There's also some implicit sleeping together (nothing NSFW though) in the Lisa and Junna thread, if that's a thing you prefer to avoid!
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[ Illya starts on the question almost instinctively.
And she immediately stops talking for a moment when she realizes what she was about to ask. It feels.. cruel, almost, to ask Junna that. But at the same time-- She's so curious. She's so worried. Will she be able to put this situation to rest until she knows?
... ]
Junna-san, why.. Why didn't you talk to anyone..? [ The girl looks guilty as she's asking it. But she has to know. ]
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[The billion yen question. Junna hesitates, looking downward, and she feels her face getting hot. She thought she was all cried out, but it's a lot. She manages to keep her composure for the moment, though.]
...I knew I should. But I--I kept thinking... thinking I'd burden people with it. That I needed to handle it myself. And then I... I wouldn't speak up until it was too late. Or I'd downplay it, and I...
Look where that got me.
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But considering she's doing it for different reasons - or so she thinks - she isn't really realizing that. Not right now. Her mind is way too focused on Junna and Junna's well being to really think about herself right now. ]
Why would you be a burden? I mean-- Don't so many people care about you? Everyone seemed really worried about you back there, and-- um, I'm pretty sure you have a lot of friends..
[ Doesn't Junna even have a girlfriend? ]
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[She looks down again. She doesn't quite catch the way Illya struggles with similar thoughts, in the moment. She's trying to put it into words -- and not fall into the same mental trap she had, once before.]
...I know that's not how it work, Illya-chan. They care about me. They'd do anything for me. I-- [She isn't so sure she didn't drive them away, though. So Junna closes her mouth, looking down.]
I know it, but when things got bad, it was hard to remember it.
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But she also knows it's a bad feeling. It's not a kind one. So she stomps it down as well as she can, hoping that'll get rid of it. She shouldn't be thinking about that. It's mean. Right now she just has to do her best to support Junna. It's the proper thing to do. ]
Well.. I hope you know now that everyone cares about you. I don't think any of this happening changed anything about that, you know. Everyone probably really wants to see you.
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I didn't think people didn't care about me. I just... wanted them to think I could handle it. It wasn't--I mean. I was wrong, in trying to keep it to myself. And not ask for help.
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[ The young girl silently stares at her for a moment, and then slowly says: ]
You don't have to tell me you were wrong, you know. [ Not that she thinks Junna is saying it for that reason. It's more likely she's just feeling so bad about it that she can't help but repeat that she was wrong to pretty much everyone.. ] Or to anyone else. I think, rather than hearing that.. everyone just hopes you can feel better again soon.
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[Junna blinks at that. She doesn't have to say that she was wrong? She hesitates for a second, not quite sure what to think. Illya called it, though; she's been apologizing to practically everyone she talked with.]
...I'm sorry. [She pauses.] I-I mean... I... I appreciate, um. Thank you for caring about me.
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That's better. Um.. saying "thanks" instead, I mean. Especially when you don't have something to apologize, you know..? [ Not that Illya means Junna should tell her thanks. She certainly doesn't think she has earned it as much as other people who have helped Junna!
But she does think other people would like to hear it from Junna more than her apologizing - that might only hurt them more. ]
Just say thank you and.. um, spend time with people. It's better than being out here all by yourself, you know..? Then you get all caught up in your own thoughts when there's no one else to be louder than them.
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There's a moment's hesitation, then she smiles. Just a little bit.]
...Guilty as charged. I wanted to get out, but... I've been doing that. I--ah-- [She hesitates.] I was trying to work up the nerve to go see people. I'm still... it's hard to not worry about it. I know that's... not really logical.
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[ .. her voice trails off, the girl looking like she's thinking about the other's words. ]
Who do you think you want to see first, more than anyone else..?
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My friends. The people who came for me. You, Illya-chan! I...
Just want to see them. Talk to them. Have things feel normal again.
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That thought is a little too overwhelming for Illya right now. Especially while she's so busy trying to help Junna! There's no time to freak out about being included! Q-Quick, Illya-- ]
You should go see her then! Go see your girlfriend right now! [ She does sound a little more panicked than a moment ago-- She's just flustered, okay. Flustered, and yet still trying to be encouraging. ] There's nothing stopping you..!
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Then she flusters, hands lifted, and she shakes her head quickly.] A-ah, I still need like... another three or four walks around the lake before I'm that brave, though! R-Really!
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[ Sorry, Junna. Apparently Illya is not letting it slide so easily this time.. Letting things slide is what seems to get people bummed out enough that they end up in the middle of Disturbances, after all! And while she doubts two would happen to Junna in a row like this, she's not going to risk it. ]
And I know she would totally want to see you too right now! I'm sure of it! Can you really make her wait like that?
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[It's being asked if she can make Lisa wait like that... well, that pushes Junna over the edge. She doesn't think it'll go well -- she's terrified of what Lisa might say -- but the idea she might hurt Lisa more gets her attention. Junna's eyes widen and then, slowly, she nods.]
...y-you're right. I... I should go see her.
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Right, right! So that means you're going today, right? As soon as you're done walking, right?
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[Which... should be soon. Her legs are starting to burn a little from all of the walking.] ...Th-thanks for the push.
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Sorry if I was being a little too harsh about it. [ Look, she has to say that, even in the face of the thanks! Illya isn't fully used to being this bold, it usually only happens when she gets so into things that she lets herself go..
Maybe it was just because she was that worried about Junna. ]
It's just.. I really don't like seeing you this way, you know? No one should have to feel bummed out about this stuff when none of us can help it!
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[She blinks with surprise at the apology. It takes her brain a second to catch up. She still feels like she's thinking though molasses sometimes.
There's a small smile, though.] Y...yeah. I'm--I'm trying to get better. It's... all still catching up with me, I guess.