OPEN ✿ June Catch-All

[hanamane]

⭐ Who: Amane and YOU
⭐ When: Throughout June
⭐ Where: Moon Bunny Market (namely @ Camellia), Riverwalk Theater, Dream Sphere (Slumbering City and N E W L O C A T I O N)
⭐ What: PLANT GAYS, Kaiju movies, Hanako being sulky about missing Dreamer-versary things and a Completely Normal Dreamer bonding trip gone horribly, terribly wrong
⭐ Warnings: Possible mentions of chronic illness in meta text, spiders, Dream Sphere death by miasma poisoning; will update with top-levels and further warnings if need be!

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[liedol]

That's the thing about just getting started. There's always going to be something you look back on and think "I should've done this" or "I never should've done that" – that's what people mean when they say hindsight's 20-20.

[ Despite everything, there's a warm swell of pride that comes with his words. Amane isn't just frustrated because he failed himself – he's upset because he felt like he couldn't protect the people who were relying on him. That means his heart's in the right place... and really, as a mentor, that's about the only thing she could ask for. ]

But that just means that when you do go back, you'll be a little smarter and a little quicker to fix things. The only way to know how to avoid making mistakes is... well, you've just gotta make a few. It never gets any more fun, but the more it happens and the more you learn, the easier it'll get.

[ The hand that had been laying on his head moves around to his shoulders as she gives him a gentle, one-armed hug. ]

I'm always going to be proud of how hard you work no matter how many mistakes you make, you know? That's what learning is.

[hanamane]

[There's no denying that one of Amane's main motivations to being a Dreamer was the sheer freedom of it all-- getting to discover and explore new places, reveling in the strength and capabilities of his new form, and generally thriving in the vast endless possibilities. But if that was the only thing that was driving him, treating the Dream Sphere like his personal candy-colored playground, then he wouldn't have graduated nearly as fast as he did. It was his desire to protect that gave him the courage and grit to face down all the nasty monsters in his path-- to protect this new life, to protect the others fighting alongside him, and to protect those in the Waking World from becoming victims like Tsukasa did. Despite his trollish antics indicating otherwise, he really did want to keep others safe, especially those who relied on him to do so-- so it made this failure a much more bitter pill to swallow.

So he sits there, quietly, absorbing Ai's words like a sponge, not daring to speak lest his voice betrays his emotions again. Everything she says, logically, makes sense-- it's trial and error, after all, and astronomy itself was built off of people continually building and improving upon mistakes. But, emotionally... will he have to deal with this sort of guilt and heartbreak every time he screws up in the Dream Sphere now? If he had a weaker resolve, this would be the time to question whether he was cut out for this life-- but for as much as this hurt, Amane knew he could never give it up. Not over this.

It's that last line that hits him the hardest, however, wrenching a tiny, choked back sob from the back of his throat. He feels that arm of hers draw him in for a hug, and, after a moment's hesitation, he lifts up his head and carefully rests it upon her shoulder. There's a half-hearted attempt to scrub off any tears still threatening to escape with the heel of his hands, pushing his mask askew in the process, though there's no hiding the red-rimmed, puffy eyes that peek out from underneath his choppy dark bangs. Maybe he was still just a kid after all, one who needed a hug and a reassuring word from someone who truly understood after a particularly hard day.]

... guess I really am coming back to you for help this soon, aren't I? Thought it'd be another few months, at least.

[liedol]

Heehee. If you want to get technical about it, I was the one who butted in first. So you haven't come back for help just yet.

[ She gives his hair a gentle, playful ruffle. ]

Just take it slow and get better and then when you're feeling up to it again, we'll go out and find someplace cool to explore over there. And we'll beat up a couple Torments as your revenge match.

[ She gives him a grin, trying to encourage a smile onto his face. ]

You think you're up for that?

[hanamane]

[Amane presses his cheek a little into her shoulder as she ruffles his hair, like a cat leaning into a pet, not caring how much of a needy little kid he looked like at the moment. He let's out a small noise of... reluctant acknowledgement, maybe, at her correction, before making another swipe at his damp face. Technicalities or not, he was still here crying on her not even a week after he moved up in ranks, so that had to be a new record for messing around and finding out, probably.

There's a cold, uneasy feeling prickling in his chest at Ai's offer, however, just for a moment, and the very presence of it gives him pause. An opportunity to go exploring with her would normally leave him excited-- ecstatic, even-- but instead, that eagerness is tempered by something a bit more apprehensive. Ai has been doing this Dreamer thing since well before he was born, so it goes without saying she knew how to handle herself much better than he did. But... what if something unexpected wound up happening on this Excursion together? What if they ran into a Torment or Nightmare they couldn't escape, and he wasn't able to watch her back? He never really worried about stuff like this before, having had enough confidence in Ai's skills and his own, but-- the very idea of possibly seeing her get seriously hurt or even ejected from the Dream Sphere left him feeling unsettled. Of all the people Amane wanted to keep safe as a Dreamer, Ai was at the top of the list.

... Of course, no doubt she probably had gotten into scrapes and mishaps WAY worse than this during her time as Ai-Doll, so perhaps stressing over this was a moot point. Still, that sliver of doubt had wormed it's way in there, and he's afraid of even bringing it up lest the powers that be somehow turn his worries into a possibility. So instead, he offers her a smile back, unable to resist the sunshine in her grin even in this state of his, though it's a bit more muted and reserved compared to his usual ones.]

... yeah. Let's do that, then.

[Even his voice, which he was trying to keep light and agreeable (despite the slight creak that came along with his tears), was a bit lower in energy then one would expect from such an offer. He was grateful for it, and maybe once he got back on his feet again, these worries would vanish, but...]